I just want someone to care..

Today actually went good..

My English teacher didn’t approach me about my hand or ask anymore questions but it seemed to me that she was walking by my desk more than she usually would and I almost always have my hands on my desk so maybe she was trying to check out my hand without it being so noticeable.. I don’t know maybe I am just imagining it and just stupid and want her to care and notice when I know she doesn’t.. I almost wish she would just pull me aside and ask me how I am doing, what really happened and if everything is okay at home.. I just want someone to care is that too much to ask for…

I am back for now!

I did leave this channel because I got better I thought I was done with anorexia, but so much stuff has happened and changed over the past month and it looks like I am slipping back into it. This time I don’t know what I am going to do.. So for now I am back…

(Source: a-u-s-t-e-r-i-t-y, via my-search-for-purfection)

I feel horrible because lately I have been binging.

I feel horrible because lately I have been binging.

The Girls I Babysit:

  • Carly: What are those? (pointing to my scars on my wrist)
  • Me: They're battle scars.
  • Anna: Cool! Can I have some?
  • Me: Please don't ever get some okay? But when you seem someone with them like the ones I have on their wrists go hug them. Don't ever make fun of them okay?
  • As we're walking around Wal Mart with both of them holding my hands, a young girl walks by us. Carly and Anna go and hug her. She hugs these two adorable little girls back
  • Girl: Why are you hugging me?
  • Carly: You have battle scars. *points to her wrists*
  • And through her tears she looks up at me and smiles.
  • If you don't reblog this... I don't know what I'd do, just reblog it.
Didn’t plan on eating today but went to get pizza after church probably ate around 1,000 calories walked for 30 min= -200 going to walk another 30 min= -200 total about 600 cals for today not good but not horrible… Stay strong! Down to 185.2!!

Didn’t plan on eating today but went to get pizza after church probably ate around 1,000 calories walked for 30 min= -200 going to walk another 30 min= -200 total about 600 cals for today not good but not horrible… Stay strong!

Down to 185.2!!

Babygirl

My dog died today.. She got ran over she was a collie, she was the most beautiful dog. I had her for 12 years. I love her so much. She will aways be the best dog ever!!!

R.I.P Babygirl I Love you sooooooooo much you will be so missed. But never forgotten. You were the best dog ever!

R.I.P Babygirl I Love you sooooooooo much you will be so missed. But never forgotten. You were the best dog ever!

MY GOAL: To be that skinny by cfhristmas!!

MY GOAL: To be that skinny by cfhristmas!!